Chapter 164
Ben and I stayed in that clearing for most of the night. We laid on the ground while we were staring up at the moon and stars and we were just talking about everything
and anything.
“How is it possible that you’ve never had a boyfriend before?” Ben asked.
“I don’t know. It’s just never happened.” I said.
“That just doesn’t make sense to me. You’re beautiful, you’ve got a good sense of humor, you’re brave, you’re strong. It just doesn’t make sense that no guys have ever been interested.” He said.
“Well, it’s probably got something to do with the amount of training that we always do. I mean, I’ve been living on army bases almost my whole life.”
“I guess. But there were guys around.”
I didn’t understand why he didn’t believe that I’d never had a boyfriend. I mean, I had boys that were friends. And I got along great with guys, but none of them had ever seen me like that before. It wasn’t hard for me to understand. It’s just the way things were and honestly, I hadn’t ever really thought of it before. I had always been too involved in training to even really think about it or to develop feelings on anyone. Which is why I found it so weird when I was attracted to Ben.
I’d never felt this way about anyone. There might have been a tiny crush here and there, but that was about it.
Ben was so much more than that though. And I never in a million years would have thought that he would choose me.
I thought he’d be more interested in the ones that were throwing themselves at him.
I hadn’t seen too much since he got here, but the other Hunters, the girls, were always trying to get his attention or trying to get Jesse or Eric’s attention. And they had even started tying the front of their shirts to show off their stomachs when they thought they could get away with it.
If the Captain or any of our trainers had seen that then they would be punished, severely.
“One guy paid attention to me. But I don’t want to talk about that.” I said, quickly looking away from him.
I didn’t want to see his face. I wanted to tell him about Hayes, but at the same time I didn’t want to tell him about Hayes. How could I? What would he think of me after knowing that? He’d think I was damaged goods.
I may not have dated any men, but I know a lot more than they think I do.
“What about you? I bet you’ve always had girls throwing themselves at you.” I said.
at
“Not really throwing themselves at me. I’ve had a couple of girlfriends. Some weren’t serious, one was but we just knew that it wasn’t going to work out.” Ben said.
“How did you know that it wouldn’t work out?”
“Two different worlds. There’s no way we could have taken it any further. Not with her parents in the way.”
“Oh. Nosey parents. I guess that’s one thing that you don’t have to worry about with me.” I said. And he chuckled.
“No. I guess not. It wasn’t just her parents. She met someone else.” He said.
“Damn. That sucks.” I said.
“I’m over it. Trying to be grown up about it. Well, was. But now that i’m
see things!
here?’m starting to a
brighter.” He said, looking at me.
Tittle
We managed to get back to the bunk house just in time to get in bed, but not go to sleep.
The lights came on and the alarm started going off for us to get up. It was time for breakfast.
Ben and I just looked at each other because we’d had to run back to get back in time.
We headed straight to the mess hall
with everyone else that was in the
bunk house and Bert and I had to det
like there was nothing going on between us.
It was hard because we had so much fun last night and we didn’t get any sleep at
all. So we knew that today was going to be hell.