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The one who truly loved me would think of the pain I’ve suffered first and foremost and feel sorry for me.
Seeing Cordelia crying made my heart ache; I just wanted to hold her and cry with her. These past few days I had spent in the hospital had been unbearably painful and lonely.
Every night, I couldn’t sleep without painkillers or sleeping pills, and even then, I still had trouble falling asleep.
I would see others who only suffered minor injuries surrounded by their families and fussed over by their loved ones. Meanwhile, I couldn’t even move, and there was no one by my side at all.
Nobody cared about me. In fact, they were all hoping that I would die. I was in so much pain, both physically and emotionally.
I was so tired.
All I wanted to do was have a nice, good cry.
But I didn’t cry with her. If I did, it would make her feel even worse. She would feel even guiltier.
So, I waved over a few of the strippers.
The past was the past now. We didn’t need to relive the pain; all we could do now was forget about it and move on.
It was just like the doctor had told me : the fact that I had survived such an ordeal meant that there was no way to go but up now. All my suffering was behind me; ahead lay a better life.
Though Cordelia was still sobbing, her eyes couldn’t help but light up when she saw the handsome men walking toward us.
“I agree , these are the handsomest ones, ” she said hoarsely.
I laughed and pulled her down to sit beside me .
She was just about to immerse herself in those washboard abs when she suddenly remembered something. “I thought you said it’s not a good idea to do this before finalizing your divorce? That motherfucker cheated on you first and caused you so much pain. If he manages to turn this against you and leave you nothing in the divorce, it would be such a loss!
Like me,
Cordelia valued money. Bad men and bad marriages could be discarded , but money
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I smiled. “I’m here to cast a male lead for my next drama, not to do anything else. How could that be considered cheating? Besides, you were the one who told me to sleep with them in the first place.”
Sleeping with them was off the table now, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t enjoy some eye candy.
After I lost the baby in the accident, Irvin gave me a job at one of his media companies so that I wouldn’t sit at home all day, overthinking things and bothering him.
He told me to supervise that company during my free time when I wasn’t taking care of him.
Over the past two years, whenever Irvin was with Julianne, I kept myself busy at the media company, using work to numb myself. As a media company, we were involved in some of the most profitable ventures on the Internet–live–streaming and short dramas.
Therefore, it was perfectly normal for me to be here at the strip club, picking out my next male lead.
Cordelia understood what I meant immediately. Grinning, she leaned into one of the men.” Then I can help with your.auditions. We’ll start with this hottie; tell me if he’s suitable.”
I raised my glass to her with a smile. “Go ahead. Order anything you like. The more expensive it is, the better. Don’t worry, I’ve got nothing but money.”
Back when Irvin first started his company, we struggled financially, lacked connections, and were constantly beaten down by the Sawyer family. Because of this, I made a habit out of frugality , so even after we made money, I still lived simply.
However, the money I didn’t spend was spent by others.
I had never bought myself a single luxury handbag, yet Irvin gifted Julianne walls full of high- end, limited–edition ones. I couldn’t bring myself to buy expensive jewelry , content just to admire them from afar, yet Julianne could treat the jewelry Irvin gifted her like trash.
She wouldn’t even look at diamonds under ten carats.
I owned only a few luxury brand outfits that I wore only at important events. Julianne rotated through several brands weekly. In fact, she would throw out pieces with their tags still intact, simply because the clothes were out of season.
I couldn’t help but wonder how I could be so stupid back then.
I wouldn’t do that now. Life was short, and I should be living in the moment. I would enjoy what I could now.
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