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I didn’t want to be entangled with Irvin anymore, and having a child would mean we’d be tied together for the rest of our lives.
That wasn’t what I wanted. I didn’t want to spend my whole life struggling and living in pain.
Sleeping with Irvin honestly meant nothing to me, especially compared to being assaulted by the criminal organization.
But having his child was something else entirely.
The more I thought about it, the more overwhelmed and lost I felt. My head throbbed with pain.
After tossing and turning for days , I finally decided to abort the chil
I truly hated the future that I would have, all the pain and struggle would suffer. And I didn’t want to fall into that toxic love again.
I wanted my future to be bright and positive.
Afraid that I might change my mind or hesitate again, I disguised myself and went to the hospital as soon as I made the decision.
But when I got there and saw the joy on the faces of other pregnant women and how they gently stroked their bellies with love, I began to tremble uncontrollably.
Especially when the doctor told me I was pregnant with twins, I couldn’t stop shaking. I couldn’t hold on to the resolve I had been before I came.
Holding the ultrasound report in my hand, I collapsed into a hospital chair. Thoughts were racing through my mind, and I
couldn’t think at all.
Just then, a woman sat down next to me.
She glanced at my ultrasound and saw that I was having twins. “You’re so lucky to have twins,” she said enviously. “I can’t even get pregnant with one. I’ve been on medication for over half a year and have gone through every test , but still, nothing.”
As she spoke, tears rolled down her cheeks.
Looking at her, I remembered how desperately I had once wanted to be pregnant.
I had lost my first child because I didn’t realize I was pregnant. I had felt so guilty and desperately wanted my baby back. Once I had physically recovered and could try again, I had done everything I could.
Seeing how desperate I had been, Irvin must have felt guilty too. He had wanted the child just as badly as I did.
But no matter how hard we tried and how many pills or injections I took, we couldn’t conceive.
I was just like this woman back then, sitting in the hospital corridor, looking at those pregnant women with envy.
I was so envious that I would even dream of being pregnant.
It was something I used to long for so badly. And now that I was finally pregnant, I was carrying twins. And very possibly, one of them was the baby I lost.
I just… couldn’t be that cruel.
They were two lives. Two lives!
They weren’t just Irvin’s children. They were mine too!
I tightened my grip on the ultrasound. In the end, I didn’t go back to the doctor to discuss the abortion. Instead, I went home.
After staying at home in a daze for more than a week, I somehow found myself calling Irvin. I didn’t know if it was the pregnancy hormones or if I could never truly let him go deep down in my heart, but I decided to give him one last chance.
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Henry could cure the poison in Ava’s body. With him around, Julianne was no longer needed.
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As long as Irvin could really send her to prison, like he had promise, I could let go of all the pain in the past and stop torturing myself over it.
I could tell him I was pregnant and build a family with him and our children.
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