Chapter 479
Noah had serious psychological trauma from being kidnapped as a child. Because of it, it became extremely hard for him to remain in control of his thoughts whenever he sank into a negative emotional state,
It was also why he was very prone to ruminating to the point of intensifying his own fears. And when this happened, his suffering would also worsen until he ultimately lost the will to live.
In his youth, I had stayed by his side, counseling and comforting him. That was how Noah had been able to pull himself out of that dark pit. It was why he had latched onto me so desperately–because he viewed me as the light in his life.
Now, he could never have that light again. He had spent all these years fighting for it. So, at this moment, he genuinely had no clue what to think or do. He didn’t know how to keep going.
On top of this, Noah had also been betrayed by the uncle he respected more than anyone. This caused him such great pain that he didn’t even want to live anymore
Accidentally slipping into his abyss of despair again, he completely forgot Ava was in the room too.
Seeing this, she stepped forward and hugged his arm.
“The sun’s shining so nicely today, Noah. How about you join me for a walk outside?” she asked.
Noah had always been very fond of Ava, who had suffered from an illness for most of her life. So, upon hearing her words, he naturally pulled himself out of that dark place.
“Okay,” he replied.
Ava smiled brightly and sweetly at him. “Thank you, Noah.”
When Noah had first returned to the Ashford family, he had been listless every day. Looking at Ava’s smile, he suddenly remembered what William had said to him then.
“I know you’ve been through a lot, Noah, but is it worse than what Ava is going through? Have you ever seen her wallowing like you? You’re a man. Yet, you can’t even compare to your sister, who’s two years younger than you. How could you ever shoulder any real responsibility?”
Yes, Noah had experienced a lot of hardship. But Ava had grown up taking handfuls of medication and had been constantly rushed to the hospital for emergency care. Most of the time, she couldn’t even get out of
bed.
So, compared to Ava, what Noah had been through didn’t seem like much. And despite everything, she was still so resilient and cheerful, while he was…
Ava had her arm hooked around Noah’s as they made their way outside. Along the way, they happened to run into a maid who was bringing her medication.
As her condition had improved, the number of pills Ava had to swallow had reduced by half. Even so, there was still a lot.
Seeing this, Noah’s heart ached involuntarily. He had always hated taking medication whenever he was sick. If he could, he would rather just power through it than take a single pill.
To him, swallowing a pill was an ordeal. Yet, his frail sister had to take so many.
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Ava had suffered so much , but she had never complained about it. She had always shown Noah a bright and positive face .
She took her pills right in front of Noah. But this time, when she faced him again, her expression said she’d rather be dead.
“Noah, did you know? Every time I take my medication, it feels like torture,” she said. “I have to swallow so many pills every day. There were even periods where I had to get my blood drawn daily, and I would frequently need emergency care.
“You have no idea how painful it has been for me. There were so many times when I considered just dying so I could be done with it!”
Noah was taken aback by her words. Ava had never said anything like this to him before. She had never shown him how much she had suffered.
He had always felt sorry for Ava but had never really understood what she was going through. He also didn’t know just how bad things were for her.
And now, he had abruptly learned just how much pain she had been going through. It was to the point where she hadn’t wanted to continue living.
At that moment, Noah didn’t know how to react. When he finally recollected himself, a massive wave of heartache crashed down on him, and he couldn’t help pulling Ava into a hug.
With Noah’s arms around her, Ava continued in a quiet but firm tone. “It felt like hell on earth every day, and there were even times when I couldn’t stop myself from thinking it would be easier to just give up. Even so, I never actually wanted to die.
“I had always desired to live. Even when I knew I might never get better, I was still determined to keep on living!
“You have no idea how much I envy those with healthy bodies who don’t need to depend on medication just to stay alive, Noah. In this world, there’s truly nothing more important than being alive.“
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Ava had suffered so much , but she had never complained about it. She had always shown Noah a bright and positive face .
She took her pills right in front of Noah. But this time, when she faced him again, her expression said she’d rather be dead.
“Noah, did you know? Every time I take my medication, it feels like torture,” she said. “I have to swallow so many pills every day. There were even periods where I had to get my blood drawn daily, and I would frequently need emergency care.
“You have no idea how painful it has been for me. There were so many times when I considered just dying so I could be done with it!”
Noah was taken aback by her words. Ava had never said anything like this to him before. She had never shown him how much she had suffered.
He had always felt sorry for Ava but had never really understood what she was going through. He also didn’t know just how bad things were for her.
And now, he had abruptly learned just how much pain she had been going through. It was to the point where she hadn’t wanted to continue living.
At that moment, Noah didn’t know how to react. When he finally recollected himself, a massive wave of heartache crashed down on him, and he couldn’t help pulling Ava into a hug.
With Noah’s arms around her, Ava continued in a quiet but firm tone. “It felt like hell on earth every day, and there were even times when I couldn’t stop myself from thinking it would be easier to just give up. Even so, I never actually wanted to die.
“I had always desired to live. Even when I knew I might never get better, I was still determined to keep on living!
“You have no idea how much I envy those with healthy bodies who don’t need to depend on medication just to stay alive, Noah. In this world, there’s truly nothing more important than being alive.”
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