Chapter 48
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Irvin’s face turned pale as he realized that Julianne was the one who loved nuts.
Watching the situation unfold, Maureen was speechless.
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When adding the nuts to the bread, she had remarked that evin had put in too many. She had never seen me eat anything with nuts at home, so she assumed I didn’t like them.
However, Irvin had insisted so firmly that I loved nuts.
Seeing how certain he was, Maureen thought I must really enjoy them, and she even planned to make more nut- based dishes in the future.
Now, she found out that I was actually severely allergic to its.
As a husband, not only did he not know his wife was allergic to nuts, but he also thought they were my favorite food.
It wasn’t just me who was hurt. Even Maureen, as the housekeeper, felt deeply saddened by the situation.
Maureen looked at Irvin, unsure whether to feel sorry for him or think he absolutely deserved it.
I slowly finished the oatmeal before turning to Irvin. “I’m full. I’m going upstairs.”
I wasn’t sure if Irvin was too embarrassed to face me or if something else was going on, but after that morning, he didn’t return.
Still, his attempts to make up for things didn’t stop. Every day, there was a new surprise or gift waiting for me. They were all things I liked, things that made it hard to say no.
So, what?
I had forgotten how much I once loved him. I no longer loved him. No matter how many gifts he gave, that wouldn’t change.
The gifts were hard to refuse, so I accepted them, feeling no guilt. I had given him so much before, and he treated me like that. Apologizing was the least he could do.
Cordelia looked at me with concern.
“Emilia, you’re not actually going to forgive him just because he’s trying to make up and giving you these gifts, are you? Let me tell you something–if you forgive him and get back together, we’re done. We’ll never be friends again. No matter what you do after that, I’ll never forgive you.”
Cordelia didn’t want to see me return to that life without self–respect. If she had to watch me become that person again, she truly wouldn’t speak to me for the rest of her life
I smiled and wrapped my arm around hers. “Not a chance.”
“Not a chance? You’ve said that before. Every time you told me you’d leave him, it never happened. The moment he showed even a little kindness, you went running back to him.”
Cordelia didn’t believe my resolve. She knew I wasn’t some masochist who could endure endless pain without breaking. I had wanted to leave Irvin before.
I had even sobbed to her, saying I couldn’t take it anymore and wanted to file for divorce the very next day.
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Irvin would always become gentle and kind for a while, just enough to reignite my hope. I had convinced myself that if I kept trying and enduring, we could return to the love and happiness we once had.
However, once I recovered and let my guard down, his tenderness would disappear without a trace.
I was stuck in that endless loop of torment, constantly struggling and sinking.
I had told Cordelia countless times that I was going to leave him, only to end up running back to him like a fool, desperately secking his affection again.
If I were Cordelia, I wouldn’t believe me either.
I didn’t swear or make any grand promises. I just smiled and said, “Darling , I’ve forgotten him. I just don’t love him like I did before.”
Back then, it was because I loved him so deeply that I kept getting pulled back into that endless pain and struggle.
Now, I didn’t love him at all!
I felt absolutely nothing for him anymore. Well, not exactly nothing, I did feel something actually.
I was disgusted.
Cordelia looked into my eyes, and when she did, she saw it clearly. There was no longer any trace of the pain or struggle that used to consume me.
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