Chapter 647
Before meeting me and even thinking about being with me, William had always planned on staying single for life.
He had been through so much, and because of that, he was absolutely certain. No matter what I did or how much better other women were, I was the only one he wanted.
“For me, it doesn’t matter what you’ve been through,” William said. “It also doesn’t matter whether you’re childless or how many children you have. I also don’t care whether or not you can love me the way I love you. None of that matters to me.
As long as you’re willing to be with me, I’d be the happiest person in the world. I see your children as my own. And if anything, I will only love them more than their biological father, not less!”
He meant every word. He had never wanted children of his own, and he genuinely adored my twin babies. If he could be with me and had the chance to be their father, he truly would give them everything he had.
I could feel William’s sincerity. I also knew someone like him was a man of his word. Truthfully, I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel anything or wasn’t moved by how genuinely serious he was.
His feelings were so sincere, and he was serious too. If I didn’t have children, maybe I would’ve been willing to find the courage to try again and give love another shot.
Howeyer, I did, and my heart belonged to them. Before doing anything, I would instinctively think about what was best for them first.
I believed William was utterly sincere right now, and I believed he would really do as he said. That being said, people changed with time. Just because someone was sincere now, it didn’t mean they would remain the same in the future.
It wasn that I didn’t trust his character. It was just that this was human nature. It applied to everyone.
For example, a person wanted a very rare and valuable handbag. And to own it, they scrimp, save, and give up everything for it.
Before owning it, they would dream about it every night. And once they finally did, they would treasure it like nothing else. When it rained, they would rather get soaked than let it get wet at all.
But as time went by and the longer they owned it, it didn’t matter how precious it still was. The cherished feeling they had for it would never be as strong as it was in the beginning.
No matter how much someone desired something, it would always become ordinary once they had obtained it. That was just how it was with material objects, and it was even more so when it came to people.
It was just like how Irvin once loved me so deeply. In order to win me over, he gave it his all. He could even throw his life away without hesitation for my sake.
But after we got together, his trust in me wasn’t as steadfast as it initially was. He also didn’t keep loving me as deeply.
And just because he had been psychologically traumatized, he had easily believed Julianne’s words and treated me so terribly.
It didn’t matter that his hatred for me was proportionate to how deeply he loved me, or anything else. The fact was, his cherished feelings for me didn’t last.
Let’s say we were to view things generously and assume William didn’t have the same negative tendency. Let’s also say his feelings would remain the same until the end. Even so, love was a two–way street. No one could keep giving endlessly without getting tired.
I also didn’t want to be emotionally indebted to someone like that, nor did I want to just keep receiving someone else’s love without giving anything back in return.
I had never liked being indebted to people, especially when it came to emotional debts.
I also knew I was probably just overthinking all this and that these were all just excuses, Ultimately, the real reason was that I no longer had the courage to put my heart out there again.
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Hence, in the end, I still lifted my head and met William’s gaze. While making full eye contact, I said, “I’m sorry, William. I just don’t feel any romantic feelings for you, and I’ve never considered being with you.”