Chapter 264
Chapter 265
Amber’s POV
That night, I stayed awake, replaying in my mind the conversation I had with Julian again and again on an eternal loop. I couldn’t stop thinking about the things he said, how it made me feel, and what it might mean for
our future.
I never imagined I might hear him talk about prioritizing me like that, as he’d always put everything else above me in our past – the pack most of all. Yet here he was, saying that he would even quit if I asked it of him.
He had claimed that Alice and I were his whole world.
And he said he loved me, with such passion that I could practically still hear the words in his voice ringing
around, echoing in my mind. Each time they echoed, my heart stuttered, my whole chest feeling full with the
love that he was promising to me.
Even with these emotionally fulfilling words, I still struggled to trust him. The past hung over us like a dark
stain, a tiny little raincloud, that always came around just as we were starting to be happy.
He had hurt me so much in the past, much of which I had allowed to happen. If I had walked away at the start…
If I had put my foot down and cared about myself enough to protect myself when he had treated me cruelly…
All this time I thought I had been angry at him, but maybe I had truly forgiven him long ago. Perhaps it was my self–targeted fury that held me back now.
But that wasn’t fair to him. It wasn’t fair to me either.
Maybe I’d been holding back for too long, and had been too hard on both of us. Didn’t we both deserve better?
I’d let things fester between us, purposefully focusing on the pain when I should have been trying to find a way to navigate through it to the other side.
Truly, I had never believed there was anyone for me but Julian. Despite all the hurdles we had left to face, I still
believed that.
If I couldn’t be with him, I didn’t think I wanted to be with anyone, and I doubted that would ever change.
I gave my heart to him a long time ago, and was not looking to reclaim it. I should have been more attentive maybe, so that I could have noticed how carefully he was guarding that heart. Instead, I had considered it lost and had been learning to live without it.
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For a change to occur in our relationship, I would have to be the one to make it now. Julian had taken many steps to bring himself to me, and to prove himself worthy. Hadn’t he done enough to do so?
Wasn’t it my turn to walk toward him now, and prove myself still worthy of his love?
Determination filled my heart as I came up with a new plan.
Gods, there were so many challenges before us yet to face. With Gloria’s condition, the poisoner still at large,
Julian nearly dying, Alice’s condition, my sudden burst into fame as a lost princess…
Yet, even with all of these things – couldn’t there still be time for love?
From now on, I was going to try to be more forward with Julian, to open myself up to him a little more. I didn’t
want to push either of us for a minute longer.
Instead of running from the love that we were cultivating, I was going to go towards it.
These new plans gave me comfort and more hope than I had felt in a while. With this, I was finally able to let my
eyelids close for sleep to find me.
In the morning, I felt refreshed. I showered and dressed for the day, then headed downstairs, eager to see Julian
and put my new plans into action.
Yet, strangely, I didn’t find Julian in the kitchen or foyer. When I walked to the living room, I found it blocked
off with several of Julian’s enforcers. One of the servants was standing there, looking through the doorway
somewhat nervously as she was blocked by one of the enforcers.