Chapter 380
I missed Alanna. I missed the girl time and her ability to distract me enough to not think about what was happening in my life. I swear the girl never ran out of things to say.
She had only been gone a few days and yet it felt longer. I loved that she was home, and I loved that I had my friend back. She was the glue that held our girls together.
“So, when are you going to let me take you out for the night?”. She grinned. “We can do dinner, go for cocktails. Just like old times p>
That wasn’t going to happen for a long time. I wasn’t in the mood to go out for drinks. I still had a lot to process and get through. Going out for breakfast was hard enough when all I felt was guilt. Inside I felt as though I should be bed bound and depressed and because I wasn’t I was guilt-ridden.
“Soon”. I smiled.
I didn’t want to get into it with her because I still wasn’t ready to open up and talk about it. I still wasn’t sure I even knew where to begin. How do I talk about it? How can I express how I was feeling or what I was going through when I didn’t know myself. It was still hard for me to process that I was no longer carrying our baby. That our baby died because of me.
“Leah p>
“Huh?”. I blinked.
“I asked if you had heard from Ryan p>
I shook my head. “He’s off living the dream while we’re stuck here”. I smiled.
I did find it weird that she asked about Ryan considering she didn’t like him. But I wasn’t going to push her on it. Maybe she was just making conversation. I did however want to push her on the Lacey situation, but I didn’t know how to bring it up. “Would you really want to be anywhere but here?”. She laughed.
“I could think of a few places”. I grinned.
“I hear Jake’s taking you to the cabin p>
“If your mom’s throwing a dinner tomorrow night, I doubt it will be today”. I wasn’t overly excited about going to the cabin anyway. I agreed because it was better than staying at home staring at the same four walls. “I’m sure she won’t mind if you skip it p>
“Skip a Charlotte dinner?”. I smiled. “I think not, besides the cabin will always be there and I’m really looking forward to seeing Carter p>
Carter was always the one that soothed my soul. We didn’t even need to talk. He just knew how to make me feel better. His presence alone always brought me comfort.
“He called me this morning and said he should be here around lunch time p>
“So, are you going to tell me the real reason you’ve come home?”. I asked.
I’ve known her long enough to know she wasn’t telling me the full story. Something either happened or was going to happen. You can’t spend a few days somewhere and know straight away it wasn’t going to work. “I did”. She frowned. “It wasn’t for us p>
“And p>
“And what?”. She huffed.
“Fine”. I sighed. “Don’t tell me p>
“It’s nothing I She paused as the server placed some menus on the table.
“Sorry for the wait I’ll give you a couple of minutes and I’ll be back p>
“No problem”. I smiled.
“I wasn’t aware of how popular Carter was”. She spoke once the server had walked away.
“What p>
“With girls”. She added.
“I’m confused”. I frowned.
“Let’s just say the girls there are worse than the girls here”. She sighed.
“Did someone try something p>
She nodded. “We weren’t even there a full day, and I was almost fighting p>
“Shut up with who p>
“With the Alpha’s daughter”. She winced.
“No way what happened p>
“Why are you smiling it’s not funny p>
Was I?