Chapter 33
I was in bed ugly crying watching greys anatomy. I had a bag of sweets and a big bag of chips. My laptop was open and my phone was near by. My gran had messaged saying she wouldn’t be late and that she was bringing home a Chinese.
I had my Facebook open looking back at old pictures. That didn’t help with the mood I was it. Just made me cry even more.
I didn’t know I would miss my old life as much as I did. My phone pinged but I chose to ignore it. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone.
Could be my gran though. Picking up my phone I saw Alanna’s name.
‘Are you okay? Ax’
‘I’m fine p>
I sent the smiling face hoping she would believe me. I wasn’t in the mood to talk about my feelings. I was okay I was just sad and being sad was okay. ‘Want to come over? Ax’
“Can’t studying. I’ll see you tomorrow if you’re in. Night x’
It wasn’t a lie. I couldn’t write my personal statement but I could type it with one hand. It may take me forever but I had to at least show I was doing some work.
My phoned pinged again. This girl didn’t give up.
‘I’m sorry you’re having a rough time just now. I’ll keep my distance until I need too. Won’t be forever princess’
My mouth became dry.
He was finally listening to me.
‘Thank you x’
I deleted his number after that.
I could hear the music, I could hear the laughter. He was having a party of some sort and I could no longer concentrate.
My front door slammed shut.
“Leah come down I’ve got dinner”. My gran yelled.
Great I was starving and for once she wasn’t home too late.
“Wow they’ve done a great job Leah. Isn’t it beautiful?”. She gushed. It was always nice to see my gran smile. “Said they would be done by Thursday. Grab some paper plates honey p>
I stood with my arms crossed leaning against the bunker. I just wasn’t fitting in here at all. I know it had only been two days but it didn’t seem to be getting any better.
I burst out crying.
“Oh Leah, sweetheart what’s wrong”. I was pulled into my grans arms as she held me tight. “Who’s hurt you? What’s happened p>
“I’m just sad”. I cried. “None of the girls at school like me, none of them want to get to know me. So much for making new friends p>
“Oh honey”. She whispered. “I’m so sorry I moved us away. I uprooted your life and expected you to be okay with it. We shouldn’t have moved p>
“I’m just not fitting in”. I sobbed wiping at my eyes.
“What about Alanna? Is she not your friend p>
“Yes. It’s okay I’m okay”. As I started to plate my dinner my gran placed her hand on my arm. “It’s hard sweetheart but you’ll get there, we’ll get there together p>
“I know. I’m going to eat mine upstairs and then go to bed. I’m not feeling good and my hands sore”. I was laying the ground work so I could take a sick day tomorrow. “That’s okay sweetheart. Go eat your dinner and get some rest p>
I headed back to my room and continued to watch greys. I don’t know where the tears had come from. I was always the strong independent girl but recently I felt like a broken one. Why didn’t I have someone to fix my crown?
Checking my phone I noticed I had a message from Ryan. He seemed to be my only real friend at the moment.
‘You alright shorty p>
‘I’m okay! Thanks for checking in. I won’t be in school tomorrow. I’m not feeling great but I’ll see you Thursday’