Chapter 158
I lay in bed the full weekend. My phone was off and I made sure Carter didn’t let anyone in. I didn’t want to face them.
I didn’t want to face him.
It was Sunday evening and I had moved from my bed to the couch. Stuffing my face with pizza and hot Cheetos, binge watching the vampire diaries. “You have to face him at some point bear p>
“No I don’t p>
“Bear p>
“I need you to be on my side right now Carter. I don’t want to talk to him p>
“I’m always on your side Leah but he’s not going to go away p>
“Don’t care”. I could feel his eyes burning into the side of my head. Never once did I look away from the TV. Jake was the last thing on my mind. “Hear him out p>
“Absolutely not”. I glared. “I don’t care what he has to say”. I couldn’t speak to him even if I wanted to. I was too angry. Friday night still fresh on my mind. That girls hands on him.
The way he was caressing her body.
It made me sick.
“You don’t have to stay with me”. I shoved a slice of pizza in my mouth. “I’m sure you’ve got things to do p>
“And leave you here in this state?”. He shook his head. “This isn’t you Leah p>
“Yes it is p>
“You’re being ridiculous. Look how badly he’s got to you. You haven’t showered in days, your makeup is smudged all over your face and p>
“Maybe I just can’t be bothered okay. Maybe I don’t want to shower or clean myself up. Maybe I just want to lay here and be sad. Have you ever thought about that?”. I bit back my tears.
“I don’t like seeing you like this p>
“Yeah well you have your Alpha to thank for that”. I wiped my eyes pushing the pizza box to the side.
“He’s really fucked it hasn’t he p>
“You think p>
“I’m sorry bear. You don’t deserve this p>
“You’re right I don’t. I was ready to give myself to him. I had planned my life around him and for what?”. I leaned over grabbing my laptop. Maybe I still had time to send my application form. “For him to embarrass me. How am I to gain the respect of the pack if their own Alpha doesn’t respect me p>
“Word is no one is talking to him p>
“I highly doubt that. All the little bitches will be trying to snake their way in”. I wasn’t upset anymore, the angry cursing through my body at the thought of Jessica or Sarah trying to console him. He didn’t deserve shit.
“So you’re going to reject him p>
“Yes”. I opened up my laptop bringing up google search.
“Remember he’s not the only one that will suffer when you do. You’re meant to be together, the bond will effect you as well p>
“Yeah well the best way to get over someone is by getting under someone else p>
“Bear”. Carter glared. “Don’t fucking talk like that p>
Shrugging I typed Yale into Google. Maybe I could submit my application online. I didn’t have a scanner to send it to my laptop so I couldn’t attach the one I had already filled out.
“All I’m asking is that you think before you make any decisions p>
“I don’t need to think”. As long as I kept avoiding him I would be fine. I wouldn’t let him get inside my head. He wasn’t getting to change my mind.
“I hope you know what you’re getting getting yourself into. He won’t stop Leah p>
“Yeah well he has no one to blame but himself p>
“Don’t say I didn’t warn you p>
“I won’t p>
“I’m going out for a bit. Will you be okay p>
“I’ll be fine p>
I showered.
I cried, my eyes red and puffy.
I got angry and then I cried some more.
“Fuck your Jake Taylor”. Turning the shower off I wrapped the towel around my body. I sulked for 2 days, I wasn’t sulking anymore.
I wasn’t crying over him anymore.
He didn’t deserve my tears.
Walking back to my room you could imagine my face when I saw Rylee sitting by my window.
“I don’t want to see anyone”. I rummaged through my drawers for some clean pjs.
“I kind of gathered that when your phone kept going straight to voicemail p>
“And yet here you are p>
“Ouch p>
“Sorry”. I sighed. It wasn’t Rylee’s fault that her brother couldn’t control himself. What I wanted to know though is why her, why that girl. “You’re fine gal. You have every right to be a bitch. I know it’s stupid but how you doing p>
“Better. Should have seen me Saturday morning”. I smiled.
“Have you spoke to him p>
“No and I don’t plan on speaking to him anytime soon”. Hopefully I wouldn’t need to. If I get accepted to Yale I’d be away for fall next year.
It was almost a year away but I could keep myself busy. Maybe even move out there once I graduate. Find a place of my own and start a new.
“I haven’t seen him like this before p>
“We both know he’s a slag. How many girls did you have to throw out at weekends. I’m surprised he’s lasted this long. Maybe she wasn’t the first. He doesn’t want me, he doesn’t respect me so why should I care p>